My Coldest Night and Warmest Truth
People often tell me not to let the death of my brother define me. While I would not have his death be the only thing someone knows about me, it is inevitable that it had changed me. That cold night was one where I experienced something I would not wish on my worst enemy. But there was something else that night.
As Michaela finished up her high school courses, she had to write an essay on an especially significant time in her life. She chose to write about the night her brother died. I asked if I could share it here and she was willing to have me to do so. I hope it will encourage you as it encouraged me.
The night my brother died was a cold one. So cold it was that I refused to go out with my mother for our nightly walk. Instead, we stayed inside with my father. He was sitting on the floor with a bucket of smelly beige paint, while my mom and I were chattering excitedly about my brother’s upcoming trip home with his fiancée.
Then Mom got that text.
I remember her face paling as she stood up, her phone clutched in her hands. My brother had collapsed unexpectedly and inexplicably while he and his friends were playing a game of kickball at college. I remember the panic rising inside me as I watched her pace, calling my dad to come sit on the couch. Hours seemed to pass as we waited. Then my dad’s phone rang. We all stared at my dad’s phone for a moment, the rhythmic ringtone crashing through the silence in a wave of noise. My dad picked up the phone and answered in a trembling voice.
Nick’s heart had stopped, and both the students present and the paramedics had been unable to resuscitate him.
He was dead.
I remember screaming as my dad spat out the words, his shocked voice breaking. I flung myself from the chair I’d been sitting in, my feet carrying me from the living room and into the kitchen before I collapsed on the cold floorboards, begging someone to tell me it wasn’t true. My mother’s equally anguished screams echoed through the hallways as she too ran from the room. Soon after, I crawled back to my father—who sat unmoving on the couch—my entire body shaking. Why, why I wondered as I sobbed, horror buzzing through the air of my small home like an electric current.
“How could God have done this?” I cried. “How could this have been His will?”
When I heard my pastor would be driving to our house, I stood outside in the freezing night air and waited, my shaking arms wrapped around myself to conserve what little warmth I had left. My mother tried to get me to come inside—but I didn’t. The night air was fresh, the sky appearing pitch black and remarkably clear from our home in the city. Our pastor eventually arrived, alarmed to find me standing out in the cold, my breath billowing around me.
“My parents need you.” I croaked when he hugged me tight.
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Job — The Suffering Prophet (3): Who Was Job?
We also learn from Job how we should respond to suffering, should this be God’s purpose for us. When Job is called to suffer, he does not curse God, nor seek to take his own life. Because he is blameless, Job has every right to cry out for vindication–as do we if we have sown to the Spirit. Job is not suffering because he has done something wrong which angered God. Rather Job is suffering because God has a purpose for his ordeal–-as yet unknown to Job.
Who Was Job?
So, who was this man who God called to suffer great loss and play such an important role in redemptive history?
Job is introduced to the reader in the opening verses of the first chapter. “There was a man in the land of Uz whose name was Job, and that man was blameless and upright, one who feared God and turned away from evil” (v. 1). The land of Uz is east of the River Jordan (Qedem–“the east”), likely in what is now the nation of Jordan. Uz could be anywhere between Edom on the south, Moab on the east, and the land of the Aram to the north. While Job was not an Israelite–since no tribal or family identification is given–he clearly worships Israel’s God, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. [1] So, apparently, do his friends and family.
As the story opens and we meet the central character, what stands out is the assertion that Job was “blameless and upright” and that “he feared God and turned away evil.” What, exactly, does this mean? One thing it does not mean is that Job was sinless, or that he had attained a state of justifying righteousness because he lived a blameless and upright life. We must not confuse cause and effect. We know this to be the case because elsewhere in this book Job declares himself to be a sinner. In Job 7:20, Job laments, “If I sin, what do I do to you, you watcher of mankind? Why have you made me your mark? Why have I become a burden to you?” In Job 13:26, he laments “for you write bitter things against me and make me inherit the iniquities of my youth.” Finally, in Job 14:16 -17, Job confesses that “you would number my steps; you would not keep watch over my sin; my transgression would be sealed up in a bag, and you would cover over my iniquity.”
Upright and Blameless: What Does that Mean?
If Job acknowledges himself to be a sinner, what does it mean when Job is described as being “blameless and upright?” The answer is simple. The text means exactly what it says–Job was blameless and upright. He feared God and shunned evil. Job was an honest and moral man, who avoided those things contrary to the law of God that had been written on his heart (cf. Romans 2:14). In chapters 29-31, Job can appeal to the public knowledge of his piety, which is the visible manifestation of his faith in YHWH. When we read that Job was blameless and upright, we should understand this to mean that Job believed YHWH’s promise to forgive his sins and, like Abraham, Job was justified through faith. Job believed and confessed that YHWH will cover his sins and through that act of faith, Christ’s righteousness was reckoned to Job, just as it was to Abraham.
Job’s faith in YHWH bore much fruit of the Spirit, fruit which was tangible to all who knew him and fruit which was especially pleasing to YHWH. As one writer puts it, “there was an honest harmony between Job’s profession and his life, quite the opposite of the hypocrisy of which he was presently accused by Satan and later by his friends.” [2] Having been justified by faith, Job lived in such a way that his conduct before men was blameless and upright, in contrast to someone who is indifferent to the things of God, or who hypocritically professes one thing, but lives like their personal profession makes no difference.
Job’s conduct was exemplary (some of it is described in the following verses in the way he served as priest of his family). In Job 4:3-6, one of Job’s friends can declare of Job, “Behold, you have instructed many, and you have strengthened the weak hands. Your words have upheld him who was stumbling, and you have made firm the feeble knees. But now it has come to you, and you are impatient; it touches you, and you are dismayed. Is not your fear of God your confidence, and the integrity of your ways your hope?” In Job 42:8, when God rebukes one of Job’s friends, telling him “now therefore take seven bulls and seven rams and go to my servant Job and offer up a burnt offering for yourselves. And my servant Job shall pray for you, for I will accept his prayer not to deal with you according to your folly. For you have not spoken of me what is right, as my servant Job has.” In this, we see that Job is a righteous man, which is the outward manifestation of his faith in YHWH—not only by virtue of his justification before God through faith, but evident in his daily conduct. James 2:18 comes to mind. “But someone will say, `You have faith and I have works.’ Show me your faith apart from your works, and I will show you my faith by my works.” When Job suffers, it is not because he has some secret sin, or because God is punishing Job because he has done something which provokes God to anger.
This is precisely why Satan sets out to expose Job’s obedience as phony (a quid pro quo) and why the Lord allows Job to be put to the test. Even if God turned Satan to an ash at that very moment, the question about human righteousness resulting from divine bribery would never be answered. Job was truly blameless and upright. Job had done nothing to bring about the trial that is about to befall him. He feared God and shunned evil. Hence God allows Satan to put Job to the test to vindicate God’s righteous dealing with his creatures. Satan will get his answer.
This also explains why Job has every right to cry out for God to vindicate his good name. After all, God has promised not to punish the blameless. But why then does Job suffer if he has done nothing wrong? That is the question which this remarkable book will seek to answer. And that answer is found in the wisdom and mysterious purposes of God.
In verses 2 and 3, we learn something of Job’s personal circumstances before his ordeal begins.
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Two Ways to Pray
We often long for revival in our churches and in our nation. But such revival must first begin with us — a revival of cool, complacent, apathetic hearts strengthened to a renewed life in Jesus Christ by the work of the Holy Spirit in us. “I am exceedingly afflicted; Revive me, O LORD, according to Your word” (Psalm 119:107). God revives His people through the ordinary means of His word, but He also does this through the ordinary means of prayer.
What a man is alone on his knees before God, that he is — and no more. ~ Robert Murray McCheyne
One of my favorite parables of Jesus is found in Luke 18:9-14 — the Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector. Of course, the parable is a little ruined for us in our day, because Pharisees are automatically considered to be “bad guys” in our thinking (although I guess that’s also true for tax collectors). It would not necessarily have been the case in Jesus’ day, however. The Pharisees were the religious leaders in the synagogues, and they were generally considered to be morally and religiously upstanding individuals (at least until Jesus begins to highlight their hypocrisy). It’s a bit like watching the first three Star Wars movies (that is, Episodes I-III) — because we’ve seen Episodes IV-VI and we know that Anakin Skywalker is going to become Darth Vader, it’s very difficult to watch those movies without expecting him to do something bad eventually. So it is with this Pharisee — we know he’s bad, and we almost expect him to pray a bad prayer. But for Jesus’ audience, that was likely an unexpected twist.
This post has to do with prayer, and in Terry Johnson’s wonderful book on The Parables of Jesus, he cites the brief quote from Robert Murray McCheyne that I posted above: “What a man is alone on his knees before God, that he is — and no more.” Johnson goes on to elaborate:
What McCheyne meant was that the contend and manner of our prayers reveal our true convictions about God, life, and eternity. Our prayers reveal our theology lex orandi, lex credendi. According to this ancient principle, the “law” of faith is the “law” of prayer. What we (truly) believe is revealed by how we pray. Moreover, our approach to prayer reveals our approach to life. We live as we pray. Our manner of addressing God reveals the theology through which we address the whole of faith and life. We may put it this way: nothing so reveals our true convictions about life and eternity as our prayer life. … Our beliefs directly shape both our prayers and our life. We live as we pray. We pray as we believe. (Terry Johnson, The Parables of Jesus, pp. 111-113)
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Reformed Worship and the Regulative Principle of Worship
Written by Larry C. Roff |
Wednesday, August 9, 2023
Enshrined in the Westminster Confession of Faith (and also in the Directory for Worship) is the fact that worship is so important to the Lord that He has regulated it in His Word so that we might render worship to Him in a way, both in the elements and attitudes of worship, that it is acceptable and not offensive to Him, and therefore also beneficial to His people as they gather in corporate worship.It takes more than Reformed doctrine preached from the pulpit to make a church “Reformed.” At the time of the Reformation, the first thing that people saw and heard that alerted them to the reality that something had changed was the worship service, its structure and contents as well as its “feel.” It was conducted in their language, it included doctrinal preaching, they were taught to sing, and the worship order was re-formed based on a biblical pattern rather than on the traditional (unbiblical) Roman Mass.
Is there something lastingly and recognizably unique about Reformed worship today? It is not unusual that in our day we find worship practices that demonstrate surprising diversity, often incredibly different from one another. Too many seem driven not by a desire to discern from Scripture what God desires and delights in with our worship, but rather either thought-less tradition, or to do what we find most satisfying in achieving our goals of enrichment, enlightenment, outreach, and sadly, even entertainment. And with so many denominational as well as theological and cultural varieties offered on the smorgasbord of worship possibilities, is it fair to ask the question, “What is unique to and recognizable about Reformed worship?” I ask these questions out of decades of first-hand exposure to and participation in worship practices in countless churches across the nation in our denomination, as well as from teaching Reformed worship in a seminary.
Enshrined in the Westminster Confession of Faith (and also in the Directory for Worship) is the fact that worship is so important to the Lord that He has regulated it in His Word so that we might render worship to Him in a way, both in the elements and attitudes of worship, that it is acceptable and not offensive to Him, and therefore also beneficial to His people as they gather in corporate worship.
Here are brief descriptions of the widely recognized “Elements of Worship” which we find in His Word. All of these, and nothing in addition to these, are biblically legitimate. While we have great freedom in the details of how we implement these elements in our services, we may not add to these in our worship, or omit any of these from our worship, if we truly desire to please Him.
Reading Scripture
Not just a short passage as the text for the sermon, but substantial and multiple portions of Scripture at appropriate places in the worship service. Readings from all parts of Scripture should regularly include OT historical books, Psalms and prophets, as well as Gospels and Epistles. This need not follow a lectionary, should assure that God’s Word is heard prominently in our services.
Preaching His Word
Expository proclamation of His inspired Word, with explanation of the context and theme, elucidation of the doctrines included, and helpful application for the hearer’s benefit. It is important that these be gospel-focused, Christ-centered, aimed to both mind and heart, and not merely running commentary or simplistic moralistic lessons or group therapy sessions.
Profession of Faith
Publicly reaffirming our faith is virtually like a pledge of allegiance. Most churches use the Apostles’ Creed for this purpose, but there are many other resources available, such as Nicene, Westminster, and Heidelberg. It has been historically done with the Gloria Patri immediately following as a doxological conclusion. In Anglican worship, the Gloria typically follows a Psalm.
Prayer
In a Reformed (or any!) church, this should not just be a brief opening prayer, but substantial prayers throughout the service, such as invocation, confession of sin, pastoral prayer, thankfulness and intercession, dedication of offerings, etc. The importance of these prayers suggests that just as time is spent in preparing the theme, structure, and content of the sermon, so should time be spent by the worship leader to plan at least the outline, if not the very words of these prayers.
Singing
Congregational singing of Psalms (especially!) and hymns should give everyone present the opportunity to participate with doctrinally sound texts and musically singable compositions at numerous places in the service. While this element may include instrumental music and choral anthems, these should never replace the singing of the entire congregation. Rubrics spoken before the hymn, communicating something about the text or background of the song (including author and composer), can add substantially to people’s understanding and enthusiasm in singing.
Offering
As an act of worship, people actually present their tithes and offerings, either by collection in the pews or by deposit in a box. They must understand it as giving to the work of the gospel out of obedience to and love for the Lord, not as mechanically paying church bills! Carefully planned rubrics can regularly re-establish the biblical basis and mandate (and blessing!) of tithing. Sometimes this act of worship precedes the sermon; sometimes it becomes one of the final acts of worship before people depart.
Sacraments
While not necessarily present in every service, these are conducted as part of the service for all the people, not in private rituals apart from the corporate worship of the entire church (other than with shut-ins and elderly, and then along with at least one ruling elder). While baptism will be administered only when there are candidates, the Lord’s Supper should be observed frequently, if not weekly. The right administration of the sacraments has become widely recognized as one of the marks of a true church since the time of the Reformation.
Vows
The biblical pattern of taking solemn vows is always done with great solemnity. This will most often take place on occasions such as baptisms, reception of new members, ordination of officers, and occasionally with weddings (which are also worship services).
Benediction
While many, even ministers, view this as merely a closing prayer, it is not a prayer at all, but rather a pronouncement of God’s blessing (from the Latin “benedictus”) as the minister raises his hands over the heads of the congregation, as done by the patriarchs of the Old Testament with their offspring, with the people’s eyes open to see as they hear words of God’s promise for them. It is only ordained ministers who are authorized to pronounce this Benediction, not lay worship leaders. Many will prefer to use a Scriptural passage so that these are actually God’s words, rather than a benediction of their own composing. And a Benediction is a pronouncement of divine blessing, which differs from an Ascription of Praise, as will often be found near the beginning of the service.
Recognizable Distinctives of Reformed Worship
These are distinctives that would be clearly recognized by anyone visiting the church for the first time. They will be present regardless of the “style” of worship, whether classical or contemporary, whether formal or informal. They include the fact that we today are part of “the church militant” (still struggling with sin here in this life) and we are not yet part of “the church triumphant.” Another way of expressing that is that we are still the church “in the wilderness” and not yet the church “in the promised land.” Our worship today is to be full of celebration and joy in anticipation of that which is now occurring in heaven, but it is also to be full of the humble, repentant spirit of hearts still dealing with the fall and its consequences in our own souls as well as in our world and culture.
God-centered atmosphere
This ought to be one of the most immediately and repeatedly evident dimensions of our worship to people throughout the service. In Reformed worship there will be a balanced sense of both God’s transcendence above us and His immanence with us. People should leave with an attitude, not so much as having been in an informal gathering with friends, as with a majestic and humbling meeting with God. Our desire is that people should know that God was present in every moment. This is somewhat intangible as a mood in worship, that while it can be deemed to be more God-centered as a subjective evaluation, is none-the-less real, and certainly ought to be desired.
Historically-informed liturgy
In Reformed worship there will be a logical and biblical structure that organizes the elements in far more than just a few songs and a sermon, strung together one after another as pearls on a necklace. Historically, and for centuries, a common pattern has evolved that follows the pattern in Isaiah 6 of adoration (“I saw the LORD”) – confession (“Woe is me”) – exposition (“Speak to these people”) – dedication (“Here am I, send me”). In addition, there will be a clearly recognizable central theme for the service, connecting all parts of the service with the primary focus of the scripture and sermon as much as possible, with prayers and hymns chosen to support that theme.
Continuity between the present and the future
A Reformed church will take seriously our biblical profession of the timelessness of worship, found in such doxological phrases as “as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end.” There are certainly fundamental distinctions between the cultic liturgical acts of Leviticus and the Christological fulfilment we find in Hebrews. And we have not yet arrived at the perfect worship that is currently being offered to the Lamb by saints and angels before the throne of God in heaven. But at the same time, Reformed worship will recognize the continuity between all three by finding those timeless principles in each so as to consciously and deliberately incorporate them into our worship today. This is part of what we believe about the fellowship of (all) the saints.
Confession of Sin
In Reformed worship, the essentials of the gospel will be present in the service, not merely in the sermon. This means that our need (sin) and God’s grace (pardon) will always be a part of the liturgy, highlighting both law and grace in balanced messure. That is most often done early in the service with a confession of sin (perhaps offered in unison, and with time for silent personal confession), followed immediately by an assurance of pardon (from a specific scripture verse). Both of these can be augmented by use of a hymn of confession (such as “Rock of Ages”) and a hymn of forgiveness (such as “Blessed Assurance”).
Worship leadership and rubrics
Constitutional guidelines in most Reformed denominations not only limit ordained office to men of the congregation, they also limit worship leadership (not only preaching) to ordained elders, and primarily the pastor. Worship leadership includes planning as well as conducting worship in harmony with biblical principles. In addition, worship leadership becomes much more effective when carefully planned rubrics give information and motivation to people in everything from songs and offering to scripture reading and prayer. If care is not taken, these can become empty of meaning when the same words are used over and over again every week.
Priesthood of all believers
At the time of the Reformation, this meant that every believer had immediate access into the presence of God, without the need for priests or saints to intercede for them. It also meant that every believer had the right to study the Scriptures without submitting to the official (and often incorrect) interpretation of the clergy. In Reformed worship today, it is expanded to include the active participation of every member of the congregation in the worship service (especially in singing), without abandoning the elders’ oversight of worship by having worship planned and led by ministers duly ordained to that office. Keeping this in balance protects the biblical integrity of the service while avoiding the danger of turning the congregation into passive spectators.
Regular singing of Psalms
In Reformed worship, the Psalms are an invaluable source of worship that points us to God, and in this instance, by praising Him with the very words He has given us in the 150 Psalms. Since the Psalms contain so much about the character and work and majesty of God as well the weaknesses and longings of the redeemed heart, though we need not be singing exclusive psalmody, at least one Psalm will wisely be used at some point in the service each week. In recent years, this has become much more accessible with hymnals and psalters that include many (if not all) of the Psalms. In too many instances, hymnals are selected that have only Psalms 23 and 100 included.
Use of spiritual gifts
While spiritual gifts are not the same as talents, they involve the use of Spirit-given abilities when used for the benefit of the church. We regularly recognize such gifts as teaching and counseling and leadership, but we also find spiritual gifts in the arts, both visual and aural. When it comes to music, a Reformed church will honor those who have vocal and instrumental musical gifts, and will afford opportunities for them to offer those as a sacrifice of praise to God. Thus, there is a place for choirs and instrumentalists to offer great music in worship, especially music that is beyond the ability of the untrained. There is no more illegitimacy for one person to sing a solo to God on behalf of others than it is for one person to lead in prayer on behalf of others, not as a performance for the acclaim of people, but of God.
Thoughtful use of hymnody
In Reformed worship the songs chosen for people to sing are “screened” doctrinally, musically, and for literary quality, not just by the music leader, but also by the pastor. In addition, they are selected and placed where they “fit” in the service. Rather than simply selecting a few songs people enjoy singing, the one who plans the service will choose and place a song or chorus at the appropriate place in the service. Thus we would not sing “We Come, O Christ, to You” or “We Gather Together to Ask the Lord’s Blessing” at the conclusion, or “Lead On, O King Eternal” nor “God Be With You Till We Meet Again” at the beginning!
Breadth of musical style
While not an essential biblical principle, a use of musical styles of all sorts and multiple historical periods will be found in Reformed churches, a decision that is motivated not so much as a matter of catering to the desires and preferences of the people as it is driven by a desire to honor the God-given spiritual gifts of musical artists of all ages, from baroque to contemporary. Since different revitalizing themes in hymns will be found in each historical period, it will be wise to use a wide repertoire of hymns from the early church through the Reformation, Great Awakening, Romantic, Folk, and Gospel songs, as well as the best of contemporary hymnody. With so much music, especially hymnody, available for use today, it is sad to find so many churches using such a narrow body of hymns, frequently almost all from 19th century Gospel Songs.
Excellence in all aspects of music
Sadly, it is not uncommon today to find Reformed churches in which the pastor has introduced a dynamic that suggests that worship is composed of two parts: the “preliminaries” and his sermon. This sometimes extends to an extreme position that forbids any observance of Christmas or Easter, as well as a refusal to allow choral and instrumental music in the church, apart from an intentionally “plain” style of congregational hymn singing. If we agree that the Psalms are to be sung in worship, how can we sing Psalm 150 and forbid musical instruments, since in the Psalm God commands the use of every musical instrument known to Israel at that time, from wind to percussion (“let everything that has breath praise the LORD”). And if we are to play skillfully (Psalm 33:3), surely that encourages musical excellence and variety in everything from hymn accompaniment to choral anthems, as long as these are not replacing but only enhancing congregational singing.
Simplicity in attractive but unadorned building
With many different architectural styles, one common characteristic in Reformed churches will be great caution in avoiding anything that tends toward idolatrous attention to images that would violate the second commandment. Reformed churches can be beautiful without being ornate. There are also very important acoustical principles that aid in people’s hearing the speaker as well as hearing one another singing by having an acoustically “live” and moderately resonant room, not so “deadened” with excessive seating pads, carpet, curtains, sound-absorbing tiles, etc.
Furnishings that are theologically consistent
This will include a central pulpit, and resources for the sacraments: visible communion table (NOT altar!) with chairs, as well as a baptismal font, both in public view in every service, even when not used that day. It will also include a well-lit room from either/or natural light from windows and electrical lighting. It will not suggest that the front area is a stage for people to observe performers, all brightly lit but without manipulative concert elements like colored lights and smoke, while the rest of the room is darkened. A darkened room tends to suggest that the congregation is unimportant; that it is primarily the “up front people” that matter.
Healthy appreciation for beauty
One of the classical dimensions in the triad of transcendental values is beauty, along with truth and goodness. All three are rooted in the very character of God, from whom all truth, beauty, and goodness flow. There is nothing in existence whether material or spiritual that is more beautiful than God. In Reformed worship, as we seek to communicate the character of God, beauty is one of the things for which we aim. We read in Psalm 96:9 that we are to worship in the beauty of holiness. Since God is a spirit, His beauty is not to be found in material things. But surely there ought to be a sense of beauty that is recognizable in our worship. One of the most beautiful things, certainly is the magnificence of redemption. Should we not then also strive to create a service in which there is beauty in what is preached, beauty in the music we hear, beauty in the setting in which we meet, and beauty in the fellowship which we extend to one another? Sadly, I fear that we who are Reformed can sometimes justifiably be accused of being afraid of beauty.
Centrality of the heart
Finally, and very importantly, in Reformed worship there is the matter of the condition of the heart of the worshiper. Jesus told the woman at the well, not that God is seeking worship, but rather worshipers, those who will worship Him in spirit and in truth. He’s more concerned with the heart of the worshiper than He is in the liturgy that we use. Our God searches hearts. The last thing we would expect to find in Reformed worship is lifeless, mechanical performance in which the soul is un-engaged with God, and distracted by other things. To the contrary, Reformed worship exists where humbled sinners come together in His presence to rejoice with reverent exuberance, as a foretaste (and perhaps even rehearsal) for our future eternal heavenly worship.
Dr. Larry C. Roff is a Minister in the Presbyterian Church in America, Editor of the Trinity Hymnal, and Organist for the PCA General Assembly.
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